Still waiting...

I was supposed to have a little visit with Mother Nature the week of Sept 13-19.  But lo and behold, this has not happened yet. GASP! Trust me, I have done my fair share of pregnancy tests. I should buy stocks in Pregnancy Tests.  They have all tested negative. 

My nursing friends - who are all moms for the most part - tell me that if I don't follow the directions EXACTLY as the pregnancy test states, then it could be a false negative.  Heather - told me that I had to look real closely at the result.  She said that the extra line could be so faint that it could have been missed.  Yes, I actually went home last night and "fished" the test out of the trash. No extra lines.

I know I have plenty of time to have a baby. It's not that really.  To me, the worse part is the NOT KNOWING.  I don't understand why I haven't started my period yet.  I have been regular since I was on birth control and even before that.  I am like a child.  If I want something, I WANT IT NOW. If I want to know something, I WANT TO KNOW NOW.

Also, I would like to know if I am pregnant, so that I can even make more efforts in keeping myself healthy. For ex: WORK.  I am constantly straining my body to lift, push, pull patients at work.  I'm sure this is not conducive to a safe pregnancy.  I'm also on my feet for most of the duration -whether it's 4, 6, or 12 hrs.  I want to be able to take it a little easier at work so that I don't hurt my future baby. I guess I could do that now, but the workaholic in me refuses to do so.

I guess I will wait a couple more weeks. If Mother Nature does not visit, then I will call my physician.  In the mean time, I will wait.

Anticipation

Less than a week now to find out if we are pregnant. I'm become a woman obsessed. I'm scrutinizing every little symptom that I have to determine if I am pregnant. I need to get a grip and realize that God has a plan for me. When HE believes it is time then I will get pregnant. I feel so selfish at times thinking that I could get pregnant in a month, when I have close friends who's had a hard time getting pregnant. I guess all I can do is wait. Wait patiently for a miracle to happen.

Some symptoms I have been scrutinizing since mid Aug:

1. Frequent urination - I have been peeing a lot lately.  But this could be the fact that I'm drinking a ton of water in efforts to get healthier. 
2. I have been real dizzy and lightedheaded even without doing anything. This is a sign of pregnancy but I'm not getting my hopes up.
3. I've felt weird little tugs and pangs in my belly. Is it gas?? Could be..LOL.


These are the only symptoms I've had.  No nausea or vomiting. No breast tenderness.. Because I'm so weird, I even took two pregnancy tests.  Sept 9 and Sept 11 - Both negative.  So needless to say, I will probably get my period this week and it will be a major disappointment. 


 "Que Sera Sera".